11.17.2009

yielding

On my very first day of Seminary here at Southern, my absolute most favorite teacher that I have ever had said to us, "I would just ask that you be open to the calling of the Lord upon your life. Are you even willing just to go where he would send you? But even more than that, I ask that you just be open to His call on your life. Are you even open to it?"

And that is something I will never forget.

That teacher was Dr. Brian Vickers, and for him, I am so thankful. He has taught me so much in my one class that I have had with him-- Intro to New Testament. Dr. Vickers is funny, sarcastic (in such a great way), smart and so genuine about his walk with the Lord. I am so blessed to have sat under his teachings.

Since that very first day all the way back in August, I have thought and thought about that question. Am I open to what the Lord has called me to? And I'm not really talking about missional work (as in to another city, country, etc.), I am really talking about just the everyday, day-to-day stuff. Am I open to God's call on my life? What is God's call on my life?

And with that thought came many talks with Mat, and a new direction for me for the next few years.

This week is bittersweet for me, because it is the last week I will be a student at Southern Seminary. My very short time in seminary here (one semester) has been so wonderful. I love my classes, my classmates, my professors (including Dr. V), and all that I am learning (which is, by the way, a ton. I have been so blessed just to sit under Dr. V, Dr. Scott, and Dr. Wellum). But I, along with my sweet, sweet Mat, have come to the conclusion that seminary is not where I need to be directing my life.

Mat and I are beginning to focus our lives in such a way so that I might fulfill one of my deepest desires-- to be a mother.

Now, before you start jumping up and down, I am not pregnant. But, Mat and I want to start moving toward that direction. We are now open and ready to be parents, and it is wiser for me to stop my formal education, and to work toward being a mother and all that it entails.

Mat and I already pray for our children every day. I cannot tell you how much we anxiously await the gift of children that we pray God will give to us. We are waiting and trusting in the Lord; we are yielding to His will for our lives, and we know that will is for me to be a mother.

We covet your prayers-- that the Lord would grow our family, and that He would do so quickly, but in His time, and that He would bless our future parenting and our future children. We so desire to be parents that bring their children up in the ways of the Lord. I desire my most precious and lasting legacy to be my children. And we plead with you to pray for us as we begin this journey together.

This has been a difficult decision for me. I really do truly love seminary, but I know the Lord wants me to lay that aside for His glory for now.

We know God has a bigger and better plan for me (and for us)-- bigger than Southern Seminary and a counseling degree (as wonderful and blessed as those two things are). But this bigger and better plan will be formed in my own womb. It will come as a small child into a very big world with a slew of faithful family and friends waiting to love him or her. The Lord already, at this very second, has precious and good thoughts toward him or her. God's eyes see our baby's unformed body, and all his days are ordained for him and are are written in His book, even though our future child is not even born yet (Psalms 139).

We plead and petition God for our child. We are excited, we are anxious, and we are trying so hard to be patient. We cannot wait for our first-born child to come into our lives.

Thank you for your prayers, and we promise to keep you updated.

5 comments:

  1. I'm happy for y'all, and we will be praying. We miss both of you and hope y'all will head back down this way some time soon.

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  2. I read this for the first time right after you posted, but I couldn't seem to type out a comment through my tears.

    Praying for you, your wonderful and supportive hubby and your precious children to be. Continue to yield to His plan and you will be forever blessed.

    Love you so much, friend. Thanks for sharing!

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  4. What a great and inspiring blog! I'm glad I stumbled upon it and look forward to visiting again soon! Happy Thanksgiving!

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