3.10.2010

no good thing

For the LORD God is our sun and our shield. He gives us grace and glory. The LORD will withhold no good thing from those who do what is right.
-Psalm 84:11

Some days, it's still hard. It doesn't get any easier, I suppose.

I was talking to my friend Adina yesterday, and she asked me how she, a mother of three who had no trouble conceiving children, should handle talking and encouraging those who battle infertility and trouble with conception.

It's hard for me to say personally, because afterall, we've only been trying a few months. I do not believe I am "infertile." So, I couldn't really answer her. My other dear, sweet friend E, could-- E miscarried last year.

E said answering questions was hard for her-- terribly hard. E said after she miscarried, she didn't want people to even ask how she was doing. She simply wanted to be "normal" again. She said she cried and cried in private, and sometimes, she just wanted to go out to the store, and not have to be reminded of what had happened. I know she still struggles with it even now.

And my heart breaks for her.

So, with all these emotions constantly swimming around in my head (and my heart and soul), and because not a day goes by when I do not plead with God with everything within me that the small miracle of life would happen inside my body, I am going to take this time to thank the Lord for the precious children He has already placed in my life...


1. Merry...


Merry and I have become quite close. I simply cannot help but adore her. She's really my favorite neighbor ever. Merry is beautiful, so funny, and very charming. She loves one of our two cats (sorry, Sham), and Adina told me she is especially fond of my cinnamon rolls, too. She was at our house just yesterday, and Mat said, "I really love her. We need one."

My thoughts exactly, babe. And I would take her in a heartbeat. Probably quicker than that. This child is special. And how I pray she will grow up to love the Lord and follow after Him all of her days.


2. Ellie Parker...

It's no surprise to anyone that EPG has brought a ton of joy to my life. Ellie, who just since Christmas has changed so much, is an absolute blessing. Meg (Ellie's mom and my sweet cousin who is more like a sister than just a cousin) sent me the link to some of Ellie's Easter pictures just tonight, and I was literally in awe of just how beautiful this child is. Mum told me tonight that when she is on the phone with my Aunt Tammy (Ellie's Granna), that Tammy will say, "It's your Aunt Nessa," and EPG just breaks out into a huge smile and gets so excited. I love this child.

One of my all-time favorite stories of her is from this past Thanksgiving. Mat and I got sucked into to Retail America, so we didn't get to go home for Thanksgiving at all. On Thanksgiving Day, as my whole family gathered together to eat, my mum called me. She said she was feeding Ellie, and when she looked over, Mum picked up a picture of me from a side table. She showed the picture to Ellie and said, "Ellie, this is your Aunt Whit-Whit, and she wants you to know she loves you and misses you. She doesn't want you to forget who she is." Right that second, Ellie, just 8 months old then, leaned over and kissed my picture. I remember how the tears came when Mum told me that story.

We love Ellie, and I really cannot imagine the world without her in it.


3. My preschool class from Mobile...

Gosh, I miss them. I miss these kids so much. I was just looking at some pictures on facebook of some of them, and it's amazing how much they have grown just over the summer and fall.

More than anything, these kids taught me so much about myself. They taught me how to be real, how to be truly loving and carefree, and how sometimes, it's ok when you just need to let out a tear or two. I am so thankful that God allowed me to get to know these kids. I pray God would continue to send people into their lives that love them and desire for them to know more about Him.

I really do miss them. I miss them so very much.


There are other children in my life-- children in my family, kids I have had in Sunday School or children born to friends of my family-- and I am sure there are more children that will float in and out of my life. And at the end of the day, I am thankful to just have had the opportunity to love on them. I am thankful for everything they bring to my life without even knowing it or doing it on purpose. I am thankful that they were created in the image of God, and I am thankful He had such a wonderful, beautiful plan to create us as children.

I am thankful for the children-- the little blessings-- I have in my life. And I only can hope and pray more of those little blessings...those good things...will come my way.


For the LORD God is our sun and our shield. He gives us grace and glory. The LORD will withhold no good thing from those who do what is right.
-Psalm 84:11

2 comments:

  1. This brought tears to my eyes Whitney! What a beautiful post, combining joy and grief, thanksgiving and request. . .and I join you in asking God to give you all a baby soon! I think Mat is correct: you all do need one of "those"!

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  2. This precious!! God has a plan and a purpose for each of us! I cannot wait to be Gran V to yours and Mat's babies!! And I pray when God's timing for you is right He will bless you with that joy!
    I love you and Mat! See you soon

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