9.28.2012

lately...

Lately...


...lately, I've had the urge to write, but not much to write about. All the people who's writing I admire would tell me to keep writing, so I'll do just that.

...lately, Ama-Watts seems like she's so big, but yet still so very little. I love her so much that I feel like my heart could burst at any moment.

...lately, I've been thinking about what I do everyday....and trying to define what exactly that is. What is it that I do, exactly? Do I just stay home and clean house and keep Ama-Watts? How do you define what it means to be a "stay at home mom"? Yes, I've been thinking about that a lot.

...lately, I've been realizing more and more how no matter where I am in life, I still must depend on Jesus for, well, everything. I'll never be able to say, "Look, we've made it." More of Jesus. Less of us.

...lately, I've been wishing for fall weather. I'm ready for a cool breeze. I'm ready for long pants and hot drinks throughout the day (not just my morning coffee). I'm ready for football and cheese dips. I'm ready for College Gameday and October. I'm ready for a chill when I walk outside.

...lately, I've been thinking about our sweet church. I've been praying that the Lord will allow revival to take place. I've been thinking about ways to impact people and ways to help others see Jesus and share Jesus. I've been doing a lot of thinking about FBC. A lot.

...lately, I've been missing my momma. School's back in session now, and it's such a dramatic change from this summer, when I saw her so much. The little girl and I miss her a lot.

...lately, I've been organizing my thoughts about our house and things I want to do to make it more "home." I have so much in my head. Now if I only had enough funds to make all those ideas become reality...

...lately, I've been thinking back over my life, specifically about college. There are so many things I wish 25-year-old Whitney could tell 18-year-old Whitney. People always say to live life with no regrets, but I just don't believe that's possible. I have regrets. Big regrets. But, God is sovereign, and God is faithful. Onward, Christian soldier. May I look toward Jesus.

...lately, I've been thinking about my Mat and how much he means to me. Life is sweeter when he is around. Life is more fun when he's around. Life is just better when he's around. Thank God for such a precious gift in the form of partner. What grace to me.

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...lately, I've just been thinking a lot. I have a lot of time to think during the day now that Mat's gone basically all day five days a week. Ama-Watts doesn't do much talking (except saying Dada and Nana, which is apparently what's she's going to call me-- I love it), so I have time to think. Lots and lots of time to think. Sometimes, it's a great thing, and sometimes, it's a not-so-great thing.

I don't really know how to close this post except to say that even now that I've written all of this down, I am still thinking. My mind is full. It's always full.

...But now there's a little girl in the other room crying for her "Nana," and I think that's my cue to close. Happy Friday, and I hope you're thinking, too.

4 comments:

  1. Such a sweet post! It brings grateful tears to my eyes!! I miss you and that sweet Little Girl too! Thanks for challenging me to "think" more! I love you, Mat, and that precious Baby Girl! Mumsy

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  2. Your words moved me to tears, sweet friend. You are an incredibly photographer. I've always known that. But your honesty, your heart..... you are a beautiful writer as well. I don't know what to tell you, but that even before kids, and with a day-job, I feel the same way. Constantly lost in thought. Not sure of much except for Him. I don't regret many things, but I wish that time would go slower. I want more time to enjoy where I'm at right this very minute. And life is going so fast, so quickly.... I fear losing this time. That's what I think about a lot. Thank you for sharing your heart. It is always touching. :-)

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  3. Girl- I think we've been thinking about a lot of the same things! haha! I just wanted to recommend a book on the whole staying at home mom thing. You may have heard of it; it's called "The Mission of Motherhood" by Sally Clarkson. It has helped me define my role so much lately!! Just wanted to share!! :) Ama-Watts is precious btw!

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  4. Love this post, Whit. My thoughts sure do run wild on some of those LONG days at home. Helps to write it down...get it out. And L calls me Nana, too. Guess he can't get the "m" yet.

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